MTC TEACHER

THE CANDY MAN OR EYE CANDY???

GUESS WHO FINALLY CONFIRMED ME AS A FRIEND.....

OUR MTC TEACHER-BRo. MeLLA. (so i was so tempted to put a shirtless mella as the picture, but you're a sister missionary!) I was looking at pictures and wondering how I didn't like him/secretly date him. He's cute, just wait until you come back then you can facebook stalk him. He's cute!

SPARKLES...

"We GOT A NUMBER!!!" (Night at the Roxbury)

Guess who's? So I got a number today...I was getting really tired of being alone and in a new school with no friends...and so today was my goal to get a number whether it was a boy or girl to hangout with. Abbie, my bestie made this goal for me.

...guess whose number I got....INSTITUTE BOY. Okay, so failed within the day. I didn't do it. I went to class. Didn't do it. I went to forum (devotional) and failed by not trying. Then i was going to leave, but I didn't. I considered. I went to the computer lab. Jamming to music & planning my CALIFORNIA trip as I see out of the corner of my eye; he walked in. It took me a second, but I was determined. I don't know what came over me; especially when I make up my mind. I took out my headphones and turned to him & said, "Hey, Steven." We started chatting across the room to each other. It was fearless. We both in that moment weren't our usual shy selves...then I was like. We should hang out! Okay, bad choice of words to hangout..but the fact that I did it was epic for me. Then he was like, "yeah, what's your number?" I wanted his. I got it...he got mine, but I should have just left it at that. i wanted his. anyway...we hung out Saturday. That wasn't planned, it was a nice surprise. After stake conference some girls were having a get together playing games. Normally, I wouldn't play games...since I hate games, but I was trying to make friends. So I was sitting there texting my sister I was getting ready to leave as he walked in.

Hmm...I guess I'll stay. So I did. I endured through more games. At first, he was in the kitchen, then after 15 mins. He came in and sat down by me and played. So it was nerve racking. I was just trying to keep my cool. At one point during the night, a loud girl sitting on the other side of him was like, "you two are so quiet, it's like the quiet corner. You both are shy."

Anyway,

BAMMMM! I rock. So how cool is he; he's like well, I have to watch the NBA slam dunk contest at a friends. Then he started talking about sports. Which we LOVE the Jazz. SO HOT! He blew me away with his knowledge of sports. I kept thinking where have you been all my life? Oh yeah, here in Price at this school. As much as I love BYU, Institute BOY wasn't there. Before he left I told me keep me updated with the contest. He texted me that night. LOVE IT! Then I find out that he went to a girls' choice dance with the girl playing cards with us. BUT he was sitting by me & they never even talked. After he left the gossip started. Seems to me that I have a better poker face than her!

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up (Official Lyric Video)

Jason Mraz song is one of the prettiest songs ever. I am putting this on because of the video. I LOVE LOVE LETTERS! This song is replacing my MTC mission song-goodbye my almost lover. I hope you love this song as much as I do. I honestly can say that this describes the rest of my mission. I won't give up on love or on people. I will always hope for the best in others. Even though things are a little bit discouraging now, I know someday it'll make sense. BEST lyric of the song is, "I'm looking up." I think of that conference talk about looking up inside of down.

WTF...really?

THIS SHOULD GIVE HOPE TO ALL RMs'

*since a former ZL actually got married....?

THE RM in the UPM...

THE RETURN OF THE SISTER MISSIONARY:

BABY ADDY.

President & Sister Pitts
Former Elder Anderson & Elder Jaffary & my trainer Heidi Beck.
Payson MISSIONARIES together again.

BECAUSE OF YOU: ELDER NUNEZ

My spanish little brother.
My Elder Venegas from SDRC; but in the UPM it's Elder NUNEZ!

I love this kid! The first missionary to speak to me at the mission home April 2010. He started speaking spanish, cause he thought I was spanish. He is so sweet; he helped me with my luggage. Then we both got assigned to Payson, Utah. He was like the #1 supporter of me serving a real mission. He was so proud of his big sister! I hugged him. I figured I get one hug a mission.

HIGHLIGHTS:

Elder Nunez expressing loves by hugs to his sisters.

Elder Jaffray was going home a transfer early; surprised I got to see him & get one normal picture with him. He mellowed over a year.

I got to see a former Stake Pres. & members I lived with.

Met Sister Johnson FROM CASPER, WY.

Pres. & Sis. Pitts being proud I completed my mission!

THE BIGGEST HIGHLIGHT OF ALL:

I FACED MY PAST GHOST WILLIAMS (he hugged me) & I MET HIS WIFE.

BURN BABY BURN

VaLEnTinE's

DaY

& siNgLe

AwaRenEss

daY

THERE IS NOTHING I DO BETTER THEN REVENGE

2 missions & 2 missionaries & 2 gifts.

UPM & SDRC

Williams & Woffinden

Native sweater & stoner beanie

Both tacky gifts from tall blond blue eyed California boys that can play the guitar & can draw.

ONE YEAR EARILER:
woff-"I'm from Northern California."
me-"I hate California. I hate California boys! Especially Southern California boys!
woff-"You can't hate all of California."
me-"but I do. The state of California. California boys."
woff-"You can't hate all of them. You can find d-bags everywhere. They're in Utah & in Southern California. You can find them anywhere."
me-"TRUE."
woff-"You should try Northern California boys."
me-"Uhhh...didn't you say you were from Northern California?"

SILENCE.

The best way for me to get over my past experiences of crashing and burning. Set fire to the RAIN. Burn the bridges as well as the reminders. This Valentines Day I wanted to get rid of all the Elder DRAMA memories & experiences I have suffered through for almost 2years. I wanted to have a clean break and not think about LOVE or heartbreak...heart BURN! Not to ever say that they didn't mean anything to me, on the contrary, the gifts meant everything to me...when it actually meant something to them. I don't feel the need to keep meaningless tokens of the past. Surprisingly both token went up in flames fast with the help of hairspray as me& my bff Abbie listened to WEEZER's -"SAY IT AIN'T SO. Your love is a heart-breaker. Say it ain't so. My love is a life-taker."

Fuel, fire, flames, finished.

BLOND ambition

Do BLONDS really have more fun?

You decide...

"I've had enough, this is my prayer. That I can live as free as my hair. I AM MY HAIR." Lady Gaga

cute without the e (cut from the team)

"I go back to December all the time."-Taylor Swift

The letter written December 27. The last time to my knowledge that everything was good between Woffinden & myself. He wrote me reassuring me that we were friends still & that we would be after the mission. It's technicially the 3rd letter I've recieved from him within that year. It felt we were on our way to mending our broken friendship. A week after he returned home I was blocked out of his facebook page. I couldn't believe that it was actually happening to me. He told me he would at least be facebook friends with me. I was always nervous about the aftermath of the mission, especially after the rollercoaster we had been on for the past year. Afriad that I would lose him as a friend. That he wouldn't be in my life. Everything did fall apart. Not on my merit, but he out of nowhere changed everything. This is far different from anything I had ever experienced before. Never before had anyone done anything like that to me. There was nothing I had done or could have done to him that would have validated him blocking me. 2 priesthood blessing later I can continue to move on; to mend. It hurts a lot. I know that the UPM boy & the mission was prepping me for this to happen. Unlike all the times before; I don't know if I'll ever be able to fix it. How can I fix something that I didn't break?

"I'd go back to December, turn around & change my own mind. I go back to December all the time."

BOM name??

AUNT NANNON...again to another beautiful girl.

She was so tiny! I was the first to hold her...well after the grandparents. Then me. My sister Desi & her husband Tony were like...are you going to be the first to hold her? Go hold her before anyone else. I tried, but my mom is CRAZY about Alma. We love love ALMA, not just the book.

She came. The little angel from Heaven. ALMA WINTER. arrived on December 20, 2011. I waited until 3 AM for her to come. She is pretty. She's darker & has more hair than when my other niece Alexia was born. My duties of being an AUNT never ends....

Mylifewouldsuckwithoutyou

SISTER WHITNEY IOSUA

IS HOME finally!!! 6 LONG weeks of no phone calls was barely bearable. I don't know how I survived without my SOUTH DAKOTA MISSION MOMMY. Flashbacks to: Nights of balling my eyes out over a UPM boy & burning letters together. Luckily we didn't burn down our apt. just burned bridges. There was nothing we couldn't do. We had our first 2 baptisms in Casper & we both found our first DL crushes in Casper. In more ways than one; she has proven herself worthy to be called my sister & friend. We hit it off the first night I arrived. Totally unaware of my mission experience we had so much more in common than our 4 months of service & love for hello kitty. We both LOVED LOVED Dr. Pepper & bonded drinking caffeine. (something you can't do in the UPM). I knew this mission was right for me at that moment. A CHOKE-A-HOE sister forever. ON December 8, 2011; I arrived at SLC airport to meet my friend flying home to California to become Whit again. The only thing I wanted for Christmas was to see her. I frantically arrived late & ran in & ran into Sister Monson. Hugged her & breathless asked, "where's iosua?" Ran up the stairs to meet the Iosua clan. As much as I loved Sister Iosua, her family was as lovable and funny as she was. I loved just waiting. Her family with signs & tracking her down through the airport security. It made me smile knowing they were looking forward to see her as much as I had.

After waiting 30 minutes. She finally arrived! It didn't seem like it had been months since I've seen her. Last June & finally in December- the dynamic duo is back...ADISON & IOSUA!

LAST SIGHTING...ugly Gillette.

So much fun being apostate together! She understands me and my love for MUSIC.
Illegal music on the mission phone recorded. Your love IS my drug.

The sisterhood of the traveling sisters. From Casper to Montana. WE ruled the mission. The awesomely HOT brown sisters.













I love her so much that I don't even care that she hates CATS! Because I hate dogs, specially puppy dog blue eyes.

My biggest fan & support. Her love for natives only grew as we served 3 transfers together.

Without a doubt, I know God blessed me to have her in my life. She made my SDRC mission. I needed to have her there through the tough times. We shared laughs & we did the work we were called to do. It's an eternal friendship that I will cherish. She is worth all the drama of elders & trials of the UPM. I love love her! She is my CHOKE-A-HOE sister. The only thing that would make her home greater...is for when our other SISTER. A certain Kemp is missing from our lives. We will be waiting...APRIL 12, 2011. coming soon.

ONE MONTH...HOME

THE LAST OF SISTER ADISON; SISTER MISSIONARY

NOV. 27...& OCT. 27...YOUTH FIRESIDE...

I had only an hour to talk about my incredible missions. Of course it went over time with all the questions. I loved it, but something rings true to what I said. No one will ever think your mission is as cool as you think it is. My glory days of the Lord's guidance and work and all we are are instruments. Our purpose is greater than ourselves. I made this poster and brought my planners for visual aids, but of course my Book of Mormon attracted the most attention. Yeah, I read it a lot, can't you tell by my humility? Nothing in my life will ever be as great as my mission. Why didn't I know that on my mission?

It's beggining to look a lot like CHRISTMAS!

Ho Ho Ho....

TEMPLE SQUARE CHRISTMAS LIGHTS...and a referral for the Temple Square Missionaries.



On Saturday night; The Adisons and Heatons went to Temple Square. So beautiful and cold. I love the lights. To me, it always feels magical. Me & my sister Bre had a game to whomever was to see the first person we knew; the other would owe them some candy. I saw Matt; a guy from Provo (mtc teacher) that I was kind of interested in. He was there with his family. I was so nervous that I couldn't say hi. So no candy for me. "I'm crazy for you I'm missing you like CANDY!"

LIGHTS LIGHT UP MY LIFE.

I overheard a guy talking about baptisms and was confused about baptisms for the dead. He wasn't a member since he was obvisously confused about temples. So I went and found the sister missionaries (that were just standing in a circle chilling) and told them to talk to that man. I was like I'm a returned missionary and that guy isn't a member and is asking questions about the temple. He's on the couch; go and talk to him. So I was like thinking, STOP GOSSIPING AND GO AND TEACH. Which it took them a minute, but I came back around and they were talking with him. Still attempting to do my job. I love the work. Not afriad to do it, but WAY terrified of a RM. I can't even say hi to him & the day before Matt and I became facebook friends. RM's have the light, but fear darkens the night.

BREAKING..what?

PRICE...2pm, Nov. 25; BLACK FRIDAY

Breaking dawn sleeping, not shopping.

As I watched her life end; it made me think of the beginning. Like with Bella growing up because of love, but doing it in a painful way and finally coming to the end of Bella Swan-human and living forever as a vampire with her vampire husband. It's no wonder I don't agree with the last book and how it ends. You should live for love not die for it.

BREAKING DAWN pt. 1

I did it. i finally gave in and saw it. It only took a week. I went with my little bro. Wade. The desire to see it wasn't so strong. I don't know I guess to see the beginning of the end of Bella's youth & the coming to terms of sacrifice of life for the one you love leaving behind all logic to become an adult & married. Certainly, didn't interest me. I knew I would comtemplate my own life and as annoying as Bella was; she had the guts to throw her life away for love. I did like the fact that she wasn't that much in it talking, but looking like a dead alien as she was preganant through the whole movie. I loved loved the soundtrack. There are so kick-ace songs as well as beautiful slow songs. I also HATED her wedding dress. Not cute at all. The only outfit that I LOVED LOVED was Edward's honeymoon outfit while they were playing chess. Way hot! Cute striped shirt and playing chess. Finally, showing me why Edward is way better than Jacob, who was shirtless once in the whole movie at the VERY beginning. That's dazzling!

MUSIC MAKE YOU LOSE CONTROL...

If my life had a soundtrack; according to my closest sisters these are the LOVE songs that when they hear-they think of me & my LOVE life.

SELENA GOMEZ: A YEAR WITHOUT RAIN....Hetling's song to describe me (referring to tree lover). "Can you feel me when I think about you? With every breath I take, every minute, no matter what I do. My world is an empty place. Like I've been wondering the desert for a thousand days, Don't know if it's a mirage but I always see your face. I'm missing you so much. Can't help it, I'm in love. a day without you is like a year without rain. i need you by my side. Don't know how I'll survive a day without you is like a year without rain."

ADELE: SOMEONE LIKE YOU...my sisters Bre & Desi's song to describe me (referring to Will.I.AM). "I heard you're settled down that you found a girl and you're married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you. Old friend, why are you so shy? Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light. I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited, but I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over. Never mind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you, too. Don't forget me, I begged. I remember you said, Sometimes it lasts in love and sometimes it hurts instead. You know how the time flies only yesterday was the time of our lives we were born and raised in a summer haze bound by the surprise of our glory days. Nothing compares, no worries or cares. Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? "

BLINK 182: UP ALL NIGHT...my bff Abbie's song to describe me & my mission loves. "In the night friendships form. In the day only some do last. Are we here tonight to save grace or are we here to forget the past. Remember the friends who did anything to stay, remember the ones who made you pay. Remember that I am here for you. Remember that these words are true. the love is coming back."

Honorable mentions I LOVE LOVE these songs: We found love, by Rihanna. Ours, by Taylor Swift. Best love song, by Chris Brown.

*This post was inspired by my bff Iosua & her email to look up MARIAH CAREY: UP OUT OF MY FACE...

My self-described song of the end of 2011* Hit the lights-Selena Gomez: LISTEN!

ADISON WEDDING

11-18-11: The NEWEST Adison...Amanda Slade Adison.

My big bro Kurt got married in the Logan, UT. temple on Saturday. They were so happy & it was the first temple wedding I had ever been to. Honored to have been the 1st to know they were engaged and my return from my mission was a factor in their wedding date. I was there to see them sealed for all eternity.

It was FREEZING, it snowed the night before. This picture of us was a quick one where all of us took off our jackets to get one of our coordinating outfits. Her colors were apple green, purple(grape), and teal. Also, it was my first public outfit wearing a normal Adison dress. My sisters picked it out and bought it for me. I was afraid it was too tight and too short, but I wore it anyways. LOVE the black lace...(sis.layton told me that lace reminds elders of underwear (lingerie).

THE RETURNED ADISON SDRC MISSIONARIES

Thanks to me he got married. I was told that if I served my siblings would be blessed with marriage. He thanks me all the time. I heart my big bro.

THE FASHIONABLE ADISON WOMEN; Amanda has a lot to live up to, but I have faith she can. EVEN our jackets are matching her colors. I loved the wedding. I felt the love. I love LOVE. Maybe marriage isn't so bad...

The CUTE MR. & MRS. KURT ADISON

FAMOUS LAST WORDS

"I am not afriad to keep on living I am not afriad to walk this world alone, honey if you stay I'll be forgiving, nothing you can say can stop me from going home." My thoughts of love as I left SDRC mission.

The 2 remaining single Adison sisters...conquering labels & love. After watching Sex & the City with my BFF BRE. I realized this is what most girls are fighting for. Just like them, we want a REAL relationship not a knock off like a fake PRADA bag. I'd rather have the REAL DEAL & spend more MONEY & more TIME on the real things in life. I realized then that I needed to focus on me & what I want & deserve. The last 18months of my life has been about everyone else, but me. Now I am refocusing on my own happily ever after. Learning that as long as I stay REAL with myself being alone is better than having a FAKE relationship that comes CHEAP. Real LOVE has a cost. Now I just have to be willing to pay the price!

YOUR LOVE IS MY DRUG...

Love me dead. LOVE HER HETLING;

After 3 weeks of not speaking FINALLY she calls me & now has a facebook! She's awesome! My best work ever...at the end she was the one getting all the 2nd glances & guys hitting on her. Who knew how much a straightner, makeup, & color to her wardrobe would change everything. She's beautiful inside & out. I was lucky enough to be able to be called her friend. The day before I was talking about her to my mom about how she'd cook then do the dishes...then my mom was like, "No wonder why you haven't heard from her; she probably hates you." (thanks mom) Then Hetling called me the next day. SHE HEARTS ME! SO we chatted for 2 & half hours! It felt like old times. Which in a way is sad & pathetic for me that I still have the same problems as Shannon & Sister Adison. Which we couldn't really bring ourselves to call each other Shannon & Tegan. Not yet. I love her & am so glad that we didn't end up only "mission friends." Known to always have my back & to crave cookies DAILY. I can only say that God must love me to send her to me for 10 months. She was the hardest greatest thing on my mission. She was there during the whole tree lover drama & her insights & love were there when the sparks started with the raspberry cheesecake to the tragic end with the lies he told to cover his tracks when everything came crashing down. True to form, she is still there in the aftermath; supporting, warning, and reminding me what WILL happen if I play with fire AGAIN. We discussed everything like what Pres. & Sister Layton said to how I feel about it now, to the letter. & also the letter I wrote recently. She doesn't want me to send it, because she knows he WILL write back, even if it is to have the last word in the battle between us.

CLEANING

CLOSET, CLOTHES, CLUELESS

Cleaning out the skeletons in my closets. About 6 totes, 2 closets & 2 missions worth of boy DRAMA. Things that I found in there are so out-dated. I've grown out of loser boys & graphic tees. All things to do with my adolescence. I'm growing up. Things I used to love & hold on to...are now too SMALL & too YOUNG for me. Most days I feel so old & tired; maybe I'm growing into maturity. No longer a size XS, but being more curvaceous and now would rather be a woman than a girl. & now I'd rather have a man than a boy. So the PAINFUL process of going through my past is proving to be a LONG difficult task. After days of sorting I still have tons of baggage to get rid of. A new life-a new style. Time to toss out the past and look forward to the future. I can always buy new clothes to replace the old & boys are a dime a dozen. Hopefully, I won't have to suffer from buyer's remorse!!!

11-11-11

I LOVE LOVE SHOPPING AT H&M!!!

Hanging out with my awesome stylish cousin Laramie. He way out dressed me. We woke up early at like 7am...hahhah, and waited in line outside in the cold (even though it wasn't Wyoming cold). For the GRAND OPENING at noon. Brought an ipod and People Style magazine to keep me going. Some starbucks, free coffee & redbull, and some cinnamin rolls.

MY FUTURE HUSBAND: So of course I would be checking out way cute boys that CAN dress nice while in line, but the biggest shocker was a guy that came up to me. One I haven't seen in 18months. My old home teacher/elders quorom president and old CRUSH...Jonathan! So cute and so nice. He was so excited to see me. He's older than I am and still single and is moving back to Provo. He graduated from BYU already and he's an adult. Like seriously crazy to see him. If i was more adult and mature...maybe he'd like me. Actually probably not, he's so so so good. I wouldn't want to taint a good guy like him.

Anyway, I looked like junk...didn't brush my hair that day. I was on TV too. It was awesome. The news people were there & me and my cousin were one of the first 500 people and we got like a gift card to H&M for $25. LOVED IT. Got free H&M bag and notebook. Bought a heart shirt and a pink dress. Maybe someday I'll feel stylish and pretty again, but until then this is a WONDERFUL first step!

don't let it go to your head

SO THIS IS THE BOY I AM TALKING ABOUT IN MY NEXT BLOG POST....JONATHAN

Don't let it go to your head. I love this song!! Story of my life.

Just picture my face on this girl.