Wednesday, February 17, 2010

start a new trend; wear your heart on your sleeve.

All year I've been anticipating the day I become a SISTER missionary & dreading the day I have to wear SISTER missionary clothes.


Here's a tribute to my fashion style inspirations.

Lauren Conrad, Lady GAGA, Camilla Belle, Emma Watson, Jessica Alba, Nicole Richie, Rachel Bilson, & Taylor Swift.

I figure it's a new year & a new style.....unlike the other sister missionaries I have my secret style weapon, my personal stylist:

BRE: the Rachel Zoe of my life. Her style & fashion sense is so BAANNANAS! I literally die, it's so cute. Thanks to her, I will do my traveling & missionary work in STYLE.

"No one on the corner have swagga like us"

Monday, February 15, 2010

S-ingles A-wareness D-ay

"ALL THE SINGLE LADIES....." in Happy Valley....
I got to spend Valentines weekend in the delightful "Happy Valley," and it really was. I love LOVE my friends! So many things happened within the 2 week stay. I L-O-V-E movies, hot-tubing, restaurants, sushi, scooters, BC rooftop, temple trips, girl bonding, BANGS, & BOYS BOYS BOYS! Even though I didn't have an "official crush," my bestie Seth said he'd be my Valentine...only if I'd be his.

"There you have it, folks. Young love, full of promise, full of hope, ignorant of reality."

It was a CRAZY rollar-coaster ride when my best chick-friends met my best friend Seth. They fell in love & wondered why I wasn't. I love him, but I'm not in love with him. It was good to know for myself how I really feel about him. It felt so good to spend the LOVE holiday with people who do love me. Things fell back into place. Life started making sense. I started to think of last Valentine's Day & baseball boy. "We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk that means he likes you."
REALITY, he doesn't really like you-NO exception! Even in my case, I met his new girlfriend, but luckily I got to spend time with my ideal man to avoid the ex-crush.
I realized after seeing the LOVEY DOVEY Valentine movie, which depicted different aspects of my life; the dating, the best guy-friend, & the rejection.

"You don't keep inklings to yourself! You share them! You're like hey guy, I got an inkling you're headed for a fall here! That's what friends do, that's common knowledge, it's in the damn handbook!"

I really wish someone would have warned me about baseball boy last year. It would have saved me from heartache & my precious time. My closest friends knew what I didn't want to know. He just wasn't into me.

It took a WHOLE year to learn this lesson, if a guy wants to date you, he will make it happen. I'm such a Gigi to get wrapped up in something that's not there, but she does fall in LOVE a whole lot more times than anyone else (like me).

"Because this girl, she is great! She's like... like sunshine. Everything is better when she's there. I can't stand the idea of some jerk hurting her, I just can't. I can't."

i need to take the wisdom from both movies.

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. "
This Valentine's weekend; changes happened..."I got BANGS!" I'm starting over. I am opening my eyes & seeing the signs & new guys. I know now who'll be in my life forever & ones only making an appearance. I am over last year baseball boy! & I know what I want in a guy from seeing my ideal man. I don't need a boy; I have my friends. My happy ending is truly....moving on.