Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up (Official Lyric Video)

Jason Mraz song is one of the prettiest songs ever. I am putting this on because of the video. I LOVE LOVE LETTERS! This song is replacing my MTC mission song-goodbye my almost lover. I hope you love this song as much as I do. I honestly can say that this describes the rest of my mission. I won't give up on love or on people. I will always hope for the best in others. Even though things are a little bit discouraging now, I know someday it'll make sense. BEST lyric of the song is, "I'm looking up." I think of that conference talk about looking up inside of down.

WTF...really?

THIS SHOULD GIVE HOPE TO ALL RMs'

*since a former ZL actually got married....?

SAVE ME

TO SEE...

THE END:

AFTER a YEAR & a half-I faced my fear; better described as my UPM ghost.A day I knew would come, but I was suprised it came the day after I burned the native pride sweater he gave me to take on my next mission. & what was crazier I met his wife that he met on his mission and a year before we served together. When I went to the final testimony in Provo of my other elder friends-Williams was there. I came in late & 5 seconds after I walked in. I saw him. We both acted like we didn't see each other, but I knew it was now or never to be able to finally finish the forgiveness process meaning to put him & all of his glory in the past. I needed to see him again. It was hard and overwhelming, but way good. He is a good person that hurt me, but it was part of the plan. It prepared me for what was to come. He was meant to marry her & I was meant to serve the rest of my mission.Even when things were hard & I had a certain DL woff that tried to commit me to never speak to williams again-I knew in my heart that I would have to face him again & that i couldn't commit to that. Williams & the Mrs.are so pleasant & so meant for each other.(best dressed couple). she wasn't what i expected. Very timid & quiet around me, but very nice. I actually talked to her more than him. Williams was his charming self. Funny & loveable. He gave me a hug, which I was closed off and just briefly side-hugged him. It was all surreal. It was the REAL end of the story. Now I know I can face my demons & look them in the eye and know I've forgiven & eventually will forget.

"When it seems that everything is coming to an end; it's only the beginning."-former e.williams

THE RM in the UPM...

THE RETURN OF THE SISTER MISSIONARY:

BABY ADDY.

President & Sister Pitts
Former Elder Anderson & Elder Jaffary & my trainer Heidi Beck.
Payson MISSIONARIES together again.

BECAUSE OF YOU: ELDER NUNEZ

My spanish little brother.
My Elder Venegas from SDRC; but in the UPM it's Elder NUNEZ!

I love this kid! The first missionary to speak to me at the mission home April 2010. He started speaking spanish, cause he thought I was spanish. He is so sweet; he helped me with my luggage. Then we both got assigned to Payson, Utah. He was like the #1 supporter of me serving a real mission. He was so proud of his big sister! I hugged him. I figured I get one hug a mission.

HIGHLIGHTS:

Elder Nunez expressing loves by hugs to his sisters.

Elder Jaffray was going home a transfer early; surprised I got to see him & get one normal picture with him. He mellowed over a year.

I got to see a former Stake Pres. & members I lived with.

Met Sister Johnson FROM CASPER, WY.

Pres. & Sis. Pitts being proud I completed my mission!

THE BIGGEST HIGHLIGHT OF ALL:

I FACED MY PAST GHOST WILLIAMS (he hugged me) & I MET HIS WIFE.

BURN BABY BURN

VaLEnTinE's

DaY

& siNgLe

AwaRenEss

daY

THERE IS NOTHING I DO BETTER THEN REVENGE

2 missions & 2 missionaries & 2 gifts.

UPM & SDRC

Williams & Woffinden

Native sweater & stoner beanie

Both tacky gifts from tall blond blue eyed California boys that can play the guitar & can draw.

ONE YEAR EARILER:
woff-"I'm from Northern California."
me-"I hate California. I hate California boys! Especially Southern California boys!
woff-"You can't hate all of California."
me-"but I do. The state of California. California boys."
woff-"You can't hate all of them. You can find d-bags everywhere. They're in Utah & in Southern California. You can find them anywhere."
me-"TRUE."
woff-"You should try Northern California boys."
me-"Uhhh...didn't you say you were from Northern California?"

SILENCE.

The best way for me to get over my past experiences of crashing and burning. Set fire to the RAIN. Burn the bridges as well as the reminders. This Valentines Day I wanted to get rid of all the Elder DRAMA memories & experiences I have suffered through for almost 2years. I wanted to have a clean break and not think about LOVE or heartbreak...heart BURN! Not to ever say that they didn't mean anything to me, on the contrary, the gifts meant everything to me...when it actually meant something to them. I don't feel the need to keep meaningless tokens of the past. Surprisingly both token went up in flames fast with the help of hairspray as me& my bff Abbie listened to WEEZER's -"SAY IT AIN'T SO. Your love is a heart-breaker. Say it ain't so. My love is a life-taker."

Fuel, fire, flames, finished.

BLOND ambition

Do BLONDS really have more fun?

You decide...

"I've had enough, this is my prayer. That I can live as free as my hair. I AM MY HAIR." Lady Gaga

cute without the e (cut from the team)

"I go back to December all the time."-Taylor Swift

The letter written December 27. The last time to my knowledge that everything was good between Woffinden & myself. He wrote me reassuring me that we were friends still & that we would be after the mission. It's technicially the 3rd letter I've recieved from him within that year. It felt we were on our way to mending our broken friendship. A week after he returned home I was blocked out of his facebook page. I couldn't believe that it was actually happening to me. He told me he would at least be facebook friends with me. I was always nervous about the aftermath of the mission, especially after the rollercoaster we had been on for the past year. Afriad that I would lose him as a friend. That he wouldn't be in my life. Everything did fall apart. Not on my merit, but he out of nowhere changed everything. This is far different from anything I had ever experienced before. Never before had anyone done anything like that to me. There was nothing I had done or could have done to him that would have validated him blocking me. 2 priesthood blessing later I can continue to move on; to mend. It hurts a lot. I know that the UPM boy & the mission was prepping me for this to happen. Unlike all the times before; I don't know if I'll ever be able to fix it. How can I fix something that I didn't break?

"I'd go back to December, turn around & change my own mind. I go back to December all the time."