cute without the e (cut from the team)

"I go back to December all the time."-Taylor Swift

The letter written December 27. The last time to my knowledge that everything was good between Woffinden & myself. He wrote me reassuring me that we were friends still & that we would be after the mission. It's technicially the 3rd letter I've recieved from him within that year. It felt we were on our way to mending our broken friendship. A week after he returned home I was blocked out of his facebook page. I couldn't believe that it was actually happening to me. He told me he would at least be facebook friends with me. I was always nervous about the aftermath of the mission, especially after the rollercoaster we had been on for the past year. Afriad that I would lose him as a friend. That he wouldn't be in my life. Everything did fall apart. Not on my merit, but he out of nowhere changed everything. This is far different from anything I had ever experienced before. Never before had anyone done anything like that to me. There was nothing I had done or could have done to him that would have validated him blocking me. 2 priesthood blessing later I can continue to move on; to mend. It hurts a lot. I know that the UPM boy & the mission was prepping me for this to happen. Unlike all the times before; I don't know if I'll ever be able to fix it. How can I fix something that I didn't break?

"I'd go back to December, turn around & change my own mind. I go back to December all the time."