500 Days of Summer

After seeing the movie, "500 days of Summer," with my sisters, I started to think about my "summer."
"Into your head, into your mind, out of your soul race through your veins you can 't escape, you can't escape into your life into your dreams out of the dark is alot of guilt you can't explain. Can you feel it rushing through your head?"

DAY 1: Like the movie it showed the end at the beginning.

I knew it was the end before it happened. I was blessed to know I did my best at school & I had to accept that. I couldn't do anything to prevent the decisions I needed to make after I enjoyed this past summer. My life was forever changed in April when BYU ended for me. I have always known the mission decision would come & I would finally have to move forward with faith. As my summer continued I tried to hold on to it(summer) for as long as I could, but it was all in vain, because I saw the end first.

The hardest thing about serving a mission & making that decision is leaving behind my life. I never thought it would be this hard to do the Lord's will. I can see now how some see a mission as a break from life, in my case it's not a break, it's the biggest sacrafice. I feel guitly, because it's so hard, maybe too hard.

DAY 99: I talked to my Bishop about a mission & he gave me time to be completely sure about serving before the process began.

DAY 104: I gave the Bishop my answer; I'm SERVING a mission.

DAY 105: I announced it offically to everyone, including baseball boy.
DAY 115: I got my sister missionary account on LDS.org.

DAY 120: I got sick.

DAY 127: My swallowing foods problem started.

DAY 140: Got infected.

DAY 170: Finished mission papers.

DAY 177: Got treated.

DAY 182: Got food poisoning.

DAY 200: Stake Pres. put mission on hold.

DAY 223: Saw a specialist for my swallowing food problem.

DAY 231: Got a biopsy & endoscopy.

DAY 242: Got results, doctors can't figure out what's wrong.

DAY 258: More tests...

"don't let anyone tell you your life is over...be every color that you are. Into the rush now, you don't have to know how, know it all before you try."